3:51 PM - Sunday, May. 31, 2009

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RandumbNess...a year laTer...

It's been a whole year since I been on this thing. When life is hectic, this is the last thing you think about. Well, lets see...I graduate in a couple of months. Hopefully I will get into grad school or I can take the neccessary tests to get my teaching license. I'm a single woman! Been single for almost a year. I have someone in my life but it is nothing serious at this point. I call him RW because he and the first ex share the same name. UGH!

Other than that, life is peachy. No need to stress over things that are out of my control...like credit cards that I am struggling to pay off!!! lol.

I miss this place! I just really do not possess the discipline to keep updating it. I mean, it's no Facebook!...I miss writing. I want to do a collabo story like old times. Who is interested???

I dislike adulthood and eight hours at work!!! It's in the way but I need the money!....by the way, what is all the hoopla over Twitter??? I tried it and I cannot, for the life of me, update on a regular basis. WTH!

3:48 PM - Saturday, May. 30, 2009

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Welcome Back - Mase

Whew...yeah...forgot about this bad boy for a second. I've been running around doing whatever but mostly haven't had a chance to sit down and become "one" with my computer yet. School is okay. just one more week before summer vacation and I'm in search of another job, actually two...just tryin to make that money. Other than that, not much is going on...well there is stuff going on but i'll get into that later. Just lettin everyone know I haven't left just kinda sorta forgot.

3:22 PM - Wednesday, Apr. 23, 2008

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Emotional Rollercoaster - Vivian Green

So I'm PMS'in. Aside from the fact that I already have an attitude when I talk, I've just been irritated lately. I'm 22 years old and the older I get the more things start to bother me. I can't stand people that just feel the need to be extra and my boyfriend is one of them. I don't think men ever truly understand what things mean to females because it's not "their" thing. For example, when I tell him I feel as if we don't do anything together. He says, "Because I don't do anything as it is." But I get tired of him running in and out of my house going here, there, and everywhere but when it's time for us to do something, he doesn't do it. It irritates me to the tenth degree. Sometimes I feel as if I jumped into this relationship too soon. There are a lot of things I cannot stand yet I try and try not to let them get to me

Unfortunately, I have a tendency of snappin'. I'm 22 years old and I act exactly that, 22. But he is 21 and still act like he is ten years old. I see the age line but if I tell him he's acting childish then he is quick to get mad but if that's you act then that's what the fuck you are!

Anyway, aside from being slightly fed up. I'm just hours away from failing my Romantic Writers test. I should have dropped it when I had the chance but I didn't and now I'm trying to pull up this D- that I so effortless was given.

Umm...nothing else is new. I've just been doing my school work and trying to stay stress free but clearly that's extremely hard.

12:43 AM - Thursday, Apr. 03, 2008

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Friends - Houdini ( I think, lol)

Slowly but surely, I am realizing how grimey friends or so-called friends can be. It's a close knit group of five, including me. We do damn near everything together but lately one of these friends has been actin right down shady. I mean, giving credit to her other friends when she and I both know there were not there during her most depressing moments. I don't get it and furthermore, I have digressed from the situation. But today had to be her greatest expression, the epitome of what grimey is really about.

She offered to do B's (we're going to call her that for privacy purposes) hair. Micro braid it or what have you. Now mind you she started her head sometimes last night and doesn't even have half of the shit finished. So today when B is thinking she is about to do some more work on her head, she becomes to wrapped up in her new phone to even bother to put A BRAID in her damn head. So B waited around till like 6 until it was time for her to go to class. She has a 6 to 9:30PM class but she got out early tonight. Still no word from her and still no finished product of her braids.

That a little bit beyond fucked up and I can't imagine ever doing that a friend.

So the moral of this story is everybody that you consider a friend doesn't always have your best interest at hand.

DON'T GET STARTED ON HOW PISSED I AM THAT KABA MODERN WENT HOME TONIGHT!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS AMERICA THINKING??? IT'S RIGGED, I SWEAR. THERE IS NO WAY THAT STATUS QUO SHOULD BE IN NOBODY'S TOP TWO!!! NOBODY!!! lol. I just wanted you to understand how pissed I am that that happened.

12:42 AM - Friday, Mar. 21, 2008

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I'm 22...just a year older, nothing more!

12:27 AM - Saturday, Mar. 15, 2008

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Before You Walk Out My Life - Monica

Umm...yeah so I get a text from the ex ( no pun intended). It's rather unusual considering we haven't spoke, crossed paths, or anything in about a year.

He wants to take me to dinner for my birthday. Thanks but no thanks. Can't believe I'm saying that but I'm happy where I am and having dinner with him would not be in my best interest. I still love him. Ridding him completely from my system will take some time but at the same time I love the man I'm with. The two "loves" can't compare but this man makes me happy and that's where I am and want to be.

Needless to say, I refused his offer after having to explain my situation. He asked me if I was happy in my relationship. Yes, I am. Why lie? We have no ties to each other anymore. I told him that I loved my boyfriend. That didn't sit well with him. But I think about it like this:

I don't think women should sit around and wait for a man to get his priorities in order. That was his excuse, "he needed to figure his life out because he becoming confused". He is young and I understand that but at the same time this [relationship] was what he wanted. So while you are figuring out your life, I'm supposed to sit in the background waiting on the results? I have to admit I did at first, wait and wait, but then I realized that I'm silly for waiting. When I think of him figuring his life out, I picture him trying his luck with new people and that's not what I'm waiting for. So I moved on and patched my heart up and found someone new.

But now he figures he can pick up the peices and everything will be gravy. That's not how it works with me. I don't get down like that. He asked me if I still have feelings for him. I will always love him because he was my first real experience of falling blindly in love but as far as feelings go, I have learned to cope with us not being together and I've set all feelings behind me and moved forward.

I find it necessary to move forward at all times and never backwards because 95% of the time, what you left in the past was meant to be just that...the past.

12:58 AM - Wednesday, Mar. 12, 2008

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Ran-DuMB-neSS of the Day

So next time my roommate is about to get in the shower, I'm going to start an argument with her and see how it turns out. For real though? We arguing over who bout to wash their ass first? Two grown ass men!

You watched it and if you didn't you need to *PAUSE* and exit at this time.

I was so blown that I didn't catch exactly how that whole argument got started BUT I did catch the showdown in the van. Brian....brother...homeboy...It is NOT that damn serious for you to start a fight with ol boy cause he felt the need to express to SOMEBODY ELSE that he felt like killing someone random at the time. We all feel that way at times but why was it you that got so damn offended??? Again, we are talking about a grown ass man that just can't fucking walk away! I thought girls were bad, we're bad but no where near the shit dudes come up with.

Dawn is my girl and I really can't stand Aubrey but whatever...I just wanted to say, and I'm not trying to hate...feel free to agree with me on this, those WEAVES are ate up. Come on now. Your album went platinum and you still aint changed that track. Dawn you are slipping...LITERALLY. But I do love the relationship she and Q has. I think it's genuine and at times I wish that's how some of my relationships could have gone at times.

GOtta backtrack and talk about SEVEN real quick. So we worshipping doves now?? That's how we do? He is a few steps short of making it to the top!

Poor Donnie, it just wasn't meant to be just yet. Have we noticed...no single from Donnie??? lol.

My Ran-DuMB-neSS question of the day:
Who is your favorite group off of America's Best Dance Crew??

I would have to say Kabba Modern has it right now, at least that's what I think.

11:54 PM - Monday, Mar. 10, 2008

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Hope - Twista ft/ Faith Evans

Today turned out to be pretty good. I did a 8-5 at work. I know that sounds crazy but it wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be. Even though like 20 people came in the store [I work on campus and it's Spring Break this week] I was halfway entertained. My co-worker bought me lunch and tried to push up on me. Umm...dude, for real...I'm NOT INTERESTED.

After work I played around on the computer forever before deciding to take a nap at 7PM. I woke up, worked out for about 30 minutes, made me some dinner, and watched Making the Band 4 [ My Topic for Ran-DuMB-neSS of the Day].

Now I'm chilling. Tired but chillin nonetheless.

My mid semester grades look a little better today, still waiting on one grade. So far this is what I'm looking at:
Eng 413 B
Eng 430 D-
Eng 454 A
Eng 383 A

I'm pretty much on my shit for the most part but some of this stuff is trying at times. I'm determined to pull it up though...I GOT THIS!!

You are probably wondering why my entries are named after songs. That's just the one song that describes my mood or the situation I'm in at the time....

11:44 PM - Monday, Mar. 10, 2008

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